What Am I Doing?

With the new year, comes new everything usually. I'm trying to begin this year on the right track, but I'm struggling!

Since I was 16 I have worked consistently, with the exception of my first born's pregnancy - I was on bed rest from 14 weeks until after he was born. Next month is the one year anniversary of me becoming a stay at home mom. While I absolutely LOVE being able to see every single milestone that my sweet Bodhi is meeting daily, some days I find myself lost. What exactly am I doing with my days?

My planner helps me keep track of appointments, family stuff, and things that I need to get accomplished, but what about me. Besides being a mom and wife, what exactly is my purpose? That is what I need to figure out. 

Before I became a stay at home mom, I got up and got everyone ready for their days. When I was done doing that, I took myself to work being a VPK teacher. That was my norm. My routine. I knew when I had Bodhi that there would be a transitional period both with going from two to three children AND going from being a full time working mom to a stay at home mom. I never could have imagined that it would take this long. I've tried to do a few work from home type of things, but I can't find the motivation to do them - and then I feel like I've failed. 

This year is going to be all about finding myself and what I am doing.

PS. Please excuse the blog, while I get it exactly how I want it!