Seeking Guidance

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28

This verse is one that has really stuck out to me in the most recent weeks. I am a believer, even though we as a family do not regularly attend church. Interestingly enough, my oldest currently attends a private Christian school. That's sort of off topic. *sigh*

Anywho. When I'm seeking guidance, reassurance, problem solving, encouragement or basically anything else I turn to the bible to find a verse that speaks to me.

I chose this particular verse because I needed to hear that things are going to work out and be ok. I mean, I know, they will work according to His plan, but some days I need that reassurance. I'm really struggling to find it these days.

Typically you can find the verse (or inspirational quote) written on my refrigerator, where it is in my face all day long. Side note: If you are ever wanting to know the mood I've been in, that's a good place to start.

Living in today's day and age is difficult. Raising children is difficult. Marriage is difficult. Being a blended family, that goes in three different direction, is difficult. Explaining why I say three different directions is for another day. The moral of the story is that life is difficult.

How can something so beautiful, be so difficult?

There are so many things that I wish I had the knowledge or experience to tackle and yet I, a well educated & independent young woman, find myself seemingly lost trying to sort through it. That, in itself, is proving to be difficult to digest.

I like to think that I can give the best advice & a vast amount of knowledge on a wide variety of topics, but yet here I sit. Lost. Completely, and utterly, lost. Everyone has troubled days, why is this so hard for me to swallow at this stage of my life? I have a world of questions and no answers. Why can't I just snap out of it?

Hugs.