Building Confidence?

Building confidence is something I never struggled with until the past 5-7 years, or so. My confidence level greatly varies, based upon my weight at that time. I know it shouldn't. I'm typically a stress eater. Couple that with boredom & depression and my weight becomes a rollercoaster ride. Literally.

Right before Mike & I started dating I was finally at a point that I was happy with myself. Happy with my weight. I had busted my behind to lose almost 50 pounds and here I sit, with nearly 40 of that back on. That's a tough pill to swallow. How could I let it get to this point again?

I can't even blame it on pregnancy because 6 weeks after Bodhi was born, I was 20 pounds lighter than I am now. Boredom and being at home. That's what I'm going to blame it on. I have been careless with my eating and not making an effort to get up and sweat everyday. I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror. This morning, someone asked me if I was pregnant. That hurt. Enough to make me want to go back to working out daily, or almost daily.

Your body is a temple Sami, start treating it like one.

I've got to be a better example for my boys. I've got to get off of my bottom and shed these pounds. There isn't a reason I can think of that an excuse should be present. Too tired? Too bad. Too busy? Get up earlier/stay up later. No excuses. Period. I've got to get myself back. I have to start feeling better about myself. All of these factors directly correlate with my depression and I need to dig myself out of it. Not only for myself, but also for my family.

Hugs.